Penelope

Penelope, oh Penelope
Your Daddy came to me to sprinkle his sand
Now I’m sleeping in another land
Penelope, oh Penelope
Now come to me, take me by the hand
Lead me to that place so grand

Allow me to glance within that shining orb
Allow me to remember, to absorb
Show me the things of importance / benign
Show me each and every sign
Bring me your dream, and give me a nudge
Then from its course don’t let me budge

Penelope, Oh Penelope
I thank you from my head, my heart
I thank you for showing me where to start

Gawtcha
Come this way and this way and this way and that
Grab your t-shirt your shoes your pants and a hat
Come this way and this way and that way and this
Don’t forget to give your Cyndi a kiss!

The Faun
Set aside that notion up on a high shelf
Think of nothing not even the self
Take a walk by the branch and the wood
Do it all for your own special good
Moon over head with a path up ahead
Take the one by the half-a-wood-shed
Open your eyes and open your mind
Looking forward and watching behind
Listen for the sounds that whispering wind
Allowing all of your doubts to rescind
Now that you hear pay special heed
There is something to find in your special need

Unity
All that’s above and all that’s below
All that’s between and all that you know
Nothing and everything all this and that
As large as the cosmos and small as a gnat
Is nothing but an illusion of ONE

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A while back I had worries over the safety of a dear friend that arose from a rather stange dream. And while I know they have panic buttons for your car alarm, personal alarm systems, and the like those were not something that would work, as she was living in the middle of nowhere and should something of happened, no one would have been around to hear her yell for help, let alone some wailing electronic device.

So with that, I wrote a poem (based on that dream) and looked into other methods that could call for help should the need arise.

Worry (1) 4-31-05

You talked in your sleep last night
You had a dream
I talked to you of your plight
It was a bad dream
I now worry about you
You getting harmed
You spoke of the things he’d do
Now I’m alarmed
There are things that can be done
Take this advice
There’s things that can’t be undone
Don’t roll the dice
I can’t take this chance of risk
Listen to me
I will try to make this brisk
To make you see
You need a PERS for your purse
Your protection
And there is nothing else worse
You can not run
So protect yourself my dear
So please, this do
So *we* do not have to fear
And I love you

Worried about a loved one? a friend? Family member? Are you yourself prone to accident, or maybe your mother is growing feeble and you are concerned that she may harm herself?

You may want to look into a PERS system. It stands for Personal Emergency Response System. You can find a bit about it by reading up on it from the following links.
FTC: http://www.ftc.gov/bcp/conline/pubs/services/pers.htm
Pueblo: http://www.pueblo.gsa.gov/cic_text/health/pers/pers.htm

Or if you are interested in buy one you can find one here. http://www.americanmedicalalarms.com

I got that site from the BBBonline page…so they got a good track record. AND they happen to be one of the cheapest systems available (that I found).

Because I care…
Q

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Perpetual Motion
Chris come this way
Chris come that
Get your shirt on
Grab your hat
Got things to do
In a short time
So grab your stuff
And get in line
Chris come this way
Chris come that
Get your shoes
Forget about that
Got a million things
For you in store
When you get through
I’ve a few more
Chris come this way
Chris come that
Get all your things
Wherever they’re at
Don’t dillydally
And do not waver
I have one more
Itty-bitty favor
So Chris come this way
Chris come that
There are things to do
Wherever you’re at

 My life has been overly hectic over the last few weeks as I have prepped my Mothers house for her to move in, helped her move in, fixed, mended, installed, and built the things shes needed. I’ve been out to eat more times in the last month then I’ve been in the last year, been to more stores looking for curtains, brackets, and shelves then I think I’ve been in my entire life, and have installed more “things” then I think any normal person should.

 While all that busy work has it’s rewards and while I am more then happy to do it and do more, I can not help feeling worn out, as while I am doing all of that I am trying to maintain my own set of chores which have often gone by the wayside.

 Its important that my Mother is happy down here in the home that Cyndi and I picked for her. It is a wonderful place, but it does need work. I know that most of it is done, and I look forward to it’s completion. Though I also know that I’ll soon be moving my sister into her apartment, and shortly after that my Father will be down with more stuff and more stuff to do.

 As long as the chickens are fed, laundry is done, and I get to sleep in the arms of the woman I love I know it’ll all be OK…I’ll just be a bit tired.

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I had an epiphany
Some nails, a hammer and me
Pound, pound, pound – hammer to wood
I’ll sink these nails all real good
Tap, tap, tap – this plank to plank
With nothing but tools to thank
There’s not a flaw to detect
Said the two year old architect

I had to fix a few spots on my Mothers back patio. One spot was an issue with the floor planks needing support, the other was to replace a missing railing. I got started by whacking off the existing pieces of wood to hold the railing because they needed replaced. I took one end and nailed it onto the other for added support. Once that was done I got to measuring the new boards that needed to go up so I could cut them. While I was doing that Perrin was very helpful. He got me the box of nails, he got me the tape measure, and he resituated the boards for me. Then he got the hammer to make sure that all of the nails I just put in were pounded in far enough…

That’s him with the hammer just banging away at the railing… He is such a good little architect. I’m sure he’ll grow up to be an excellent god So wake up Christianity, you have a new ‘chosen son’ moving in ~ this one just happens to be a GRAND son. *smirk*

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 Some people look around the world and see everything but themselves which to me is sad, as it’s often these people that are the ones truly worth seeing. They need to find a figurative mirror so they can give themselves a long look. Maybe then they will see they are worth the effort.

 I’ve known several of these people and when I can, I try handing them little compliments like a compact, but they are unwilling to accept such a gift. At times I’ve bent over backwards helping them in hopes they could see worth in themselves, but that has never worked.

 Sometimes I wish life was like it was on the television so I could just say “Chin up there dear, you are super” and that would just solve all the world’s problems. But life is not television, so all I can do is hope that my FRIENDS understand that I do care and that I am here for them, should they find it within themselves to reach out for my aid. I will do my best to give them enough rope…but not enough to hang from.

 Life is not about looks, and beauty is truly measured from the inside out…sadly too many people have that backwards. I judge a person by their actions, and their beauty by the sparkle of life within their eyes. If the people I think rather highly of could see themselves though my eyes they too may see the beauty that is within them… till then, I can only do my part to be a friend.

 Sometimes I think all that is needed is a good rant. A few moments (or days) to vent off the pent up steam. Not quite an explosion, just something to prevent an implosion. I once had a friend that I hugged till they cried…which did a world of good, as I got lucky, and that was what they needed. Another time I pissed them off enough to actually let the anger out. I got lucky angain and made the correct call.

 Most of the time however, I am at a complete and total loss as to what to do. So I end up with a quick quip or lame joke. Humor is more of a band-aid then a cure, even if laughter is the best medicine…but then, we all know that OTC drugs truly cure anything, and that’s what humor is.

 So either way, know that I am your friend, and if you consider me one, know that I am here for you. Truly…

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So I wrap the noose tighter
Take a deep breath
Staple the smile in the perfect place
Grab my box filled with a million beads
And begin searching for the broken one
I will hold it tight as I fall

-=-
Like a good man I’m out in the yard landscaping
To make my lawn pretty while mentally escaping
Though the tall aged oak outback belittles my work
By scattering it’s leaves and branches with a smirk
So it’s back to the grass with my favorite rake in hand

Till at another leaf pile I can make my stand
And all the while my loving wife does the same
Though the leaves we play with are a different game

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A Tomorrow for us
Yesterday it was a chore
I tickled Lakota down on the floor
The day before it was a bother
I had her and her brother
The day before that had some stress
I had three kids put me to the test
Today it will be just the same
But only one child to play the game
Tomorrow will be another story
Because it will be just you and me

For the last several days, as well as a day last week I have been watching grandkids, and while watching Perrin several days a week is the norm for me (and therefore completely normal and sane) I have had the joys and horrors of watching Lakota and Devin. For the better part I have thoroughly enjoyed it. I love each child in different ways and in their own ways they bring me a certain contentment that I never knew existed. They also each have a special way of simply getting on my nerves; though that is something I can deal with in short bursts so generally goes unnoticed. Yesterday Lakota had to go back home, which I think was a good thing… While I will miss her till her next visit, I was also running out of patience. I think even she noticed it by the end of the day. I do not think it helped that I had a headache, and then it was topped off that I tried doing a few things online which should have taken only a few moments that ended up taking hours. I was a bit stressed to say the least.

Give me half a moment
Thirty seconds of silence
Is it too much to ask?
In Thirty seconds of silence
I just want to bask

I ended up going outside for several short bursts so I could just get a little peace of mind, which of course did not work as well as I hoped. Cletus and Usdi were underfoot and I worried about Lakota and Perrin inside. Though, I did get a short moment of Zen as I sat on the steps of the Patio with Squirrel (my gray cat) on my lap, Cletus at my feet, and Usdi sitting on the step next to me. I rubbed squirrel behind the ears with one hand, and my other one took turns scratching the chins of the dogs. That brief moment made me happy to be alive, as I got my thirty seconds of silence. When I went back in I had the vigor to grab Lakota, toss her on the couch. I then snatched Perrin and tossed him up on his cousin, then proceeded to give double SQUISHES and we all laughed and played till Cyndi and Amanda got back. It was then, I got another moment of Zen as I got to hug the woman I love…

A Garden of Emotion
I have a little basket where I keep all my thoughts
I pluck them one by one like tomatoes from the garden
Then gently place them in this basket hanging from my arm
They are put there side by side to protect them from harm
There are many different kinds like memories and emotion
I do my best to keep them all separated so they will not mix
But as I walk row by row sometimes my basket wobbles
And when this wicker box is full sometimes some will topple
Then tumble down to my feet, most are still OK
Though other times they may burst right open
So if I step in haste within such tomato paste
I too will fall

Cyndi has been overly stressed as of late and I am not 100% sure just how to help her, though I do my best to be there for her. I will not go into all the details of her stress, as that is not my place, but I do look forward to her life slowing down a bit so that we can find not just thirty seconds of silence together, but 30 minutes…no, not 30 minutes, longer, much longer. I love her dearly and waking up in her arms this morning was cause for me to wake up all wide eyed and chipper. I will do my best to give her the support she needs, as she is my support. I will do my best to love her with my all, because she loves me even more, and I will do all that I can to make sure that she is happy, because when I am with her, I am the happiest person alive.

Cyndi, I love you! I am here for you and I’ll help carry your basket…

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Next to me
I awoke last night in a bit of fright
A nightmare got the best of me
Glimpses of that dream still in sight
Thank the gods you’re next to me
I laid there in sweat and silence
Shivering as the fan dried away the fear
Shivering as the thoughts sunk in
Thank the gods that you are near
Moments passed more like hours
As the horrors replayed in my mind
And that now the time is ours
I thank the gods you are mine

 They tell me that dreams are prophetic, and sometimes I’m willing to agree. Other times I think that dreams are little more then dreams, and in some cases, little more then nightmares. I’m pretty sure that I’ll not be eaten by bears anytime soon as the dream I had last night indicated; especially not alien sasquatch bears…though I guess the symbology of the dream could hold some semblance of truth to it.

 Generally speaking I do not put a lot of stock into the average dream, unless it seemed significant upon waking or is a reoccurring dream (or theme). Last night was nothing out of the ordinary (well, other then the alien bears mawling me) so I didn’t bother looking up any meanings…besides, that’s about the only think I can recall from the dream.

 What I did get from the dream though came after I woke up, and that was looking over to the woman I love and seeing her sleeping soundly. It’s a truly peaceful sight, and as I laid there watching her she rolled over slightly, enough to swing her hand up and over. It landed just beside me, close enough for her finger to touch my flesh.

 I didn’t move, other then to smile, and as she settled again her finger twitched, and a smile crossed her face.

 I fell back to sleep without a care for Martian Sasquatch, and I slept with a smile.

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01101100 01100101 I have a trap that I will set
01101110 00100000 Carrots and beer and
– - – - – - – - – bunny net

01100001 01101110 I must stop the hare from haze
01100100 00100000 To catch and sober
– - – - – - – - – Outta daze

01100011 01100001 Can not rest till job is done
01101110 00100111 I must end sin-thetic fun
01110100 00100000 So I will stop circumstance
01100111 01100101 And pomp
01110100 00100000 Then I’ll stomp this
01110101 01110000 Bunny romp

壊れたびんで踊ってもいいか。

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You see yesterday I worked my tail off (see my Rainy Weekends) and when I it was time for bed I was most certainly ready. Once under the covers Cyndi and I held each other and talked for a while about nothing extra significant. Eventually we both fell asleep (still holding each other) and after several hours of sleep we were awoken by the alarm, still holding each other!

Words can not really explain how wonderful of a feeling that is, but putting words together in the form of a poem is a good start:

 A hug last night
Arms entwined as we unwind
While wrapped in warmth and comfort
Pay attention every touch
We massage away the hurt

Wile away the while
Saying how our day was nice
We nestle in a love embrace
Then we slumber, paradise

The time ticks by, as we sleep
My dreams are of only you
As you hold me through the night
You are dreaming of me too

The morning sun, the cock it crows
The bell rings the snooze is pressed
Waking in each others arms
Then soon we must both be dressed

Another day has begun
The cycle, it starts anew
I know this day will be grand
For I started it with you

When things just fall into place, there is very little that can detract from the grandness of life. I’m happy to be alive, and more importantly, I’m happy to be in love!

Cynthia, I love you!

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